Jonathan

I love the kid. I didn't think it was possible to love someone so powerfully. He is awesome. I asked my husband the other night, "Is it was ok to think that my son was the most extraordinary person I'd ever met." He said it was fine. Then I said, "Even if I think he's more amazing than my husband?" And he looked at me and said, "I would think so."

Being LDS, the first person who comes in your physical life is your husband. I was thinking that he might be disappointed in me and tell me my feeling were wrong because of such teachings. But really, I didn't get to see my husband grow and change through his life like I'm getting to with my son, so it makes sense.

Knowing that you have such a Godly power blows your mind after you've had your first child. Seeing all the little things that make up the person you're created, how many of those things are like you and/or your spouse, is just incredible. But then you see all the things that just pertains to them. Truly, there is no better feeling than watching my son grow and learn to master his little body. Like I said, I love the kid.

My Day

Today was pretty much like any other day. But today I got to spend around twelve hours alone with my son. He loves to be with his daddy at the end of the night right before he has his bath, but Larz was away studying for his chem final.

Jonnie wasn't happy about it. Because my mother-in-law was away at exercises, I couldn't hand him off to anyone, which made him very upset. He was overly tired and just couldn't seem to settle down without his daddy. It broke my heart.

I wonder how it's going to be when Larz goes to work all day and doesn't come home until late evening. I'm getting good practice being by myself, but my best friend in our ward who's also a stay-at-home mom just moved to Utah, so I don't have anyone to spend time with when I need some adult conversation.

For now, it's not bad at all because he's so little. But I wonder how I'll feel when he's a toddler. I really do love to spend my time beig a mommy, though. To use the expression my mom told me in college, "I should stop borrowing trouble" and worry about that when it comes.

Like, Forever!!

Soo, it's been like, a billiondy years since I was on here, but since everyone and their pet monkey seems to have a blog, I figured I should come back and pick this up again. Besides, I'm a little lazy to keep up my hand written journal and since I spend a fair amount of time on the computer, I figured I could kill two birds with one stone. I still can't figure out how to post photos, though, which is the main reason I haven't been back to use this little bloggy.

I'm a mommy now and have the best little boy ever! He's 10 weeks and I love him to pieces! Today he did something amazing. I was slouched down against the wall on my bed with my knees up so he could sit in my lap. He leaned forward to sit up ALL BY HIMSELF for nearly 10 seconds. I was so proud of him! He's my little Wonder Boy. =) It was a good day.