Boredom

Life is soooo slow right now. It feels like nothing ever moves or changes around me, nothing new, nothing exciting. I know that's going to change in 8 months or so, but it seems like there's nothing worth doing or going on for. Not as in death, but there's just a hum-drum in life and it takes a lot of pushing forward if you feel down because nothing is happening in your life.

Babies

I found out I was pregnant 6 days ago and, boy, was it was shock! Today I went to the doctor to confirm it and the blood test they did will tell us how many weeks we are. I still can't believe I'm going to be a mom.

You kind of go through life thinking there will be this big change in you, that when you become a parent you'll feel something different inside, maybe more grown up, mature if you will. But you're really just the same person you've always been. It's ackward knowing it and you wish that you were more mature, older mentally- more prepared. If there was something I could be to be more ready, I would do it. But I can't change who I am. I'm me. Just me.